bhale chhin lo mujhse meri jawaani.
Magar mujhko lautaa do bachpan ka saawan, woh kaagaz ki kashtii wo barish ka paani,
Woh kaagaz ki kasthii, wo barish ka paani
Is that offer still valid ? Can i give up all that i have for something that was so simple yet so joyous ? Can i exchange all that i have gained or atleast think i have gained, for those childhood days ?
As i look at my childhood photographs, i am drowning deeper into nostalgia. I see all of my friends, all of my playgrounds and all the wonderful times i spent with the both of them. The world was such a simple place. The world wasnt really such an intimidating concept. It was just three things, the school; the home; and the playground. That was my world. And it was a happy world. It was a happy world because there was no worry of the future, no struggle to achieve, no responsibility to succeed. Everything was done because it was fun. What ever made me happy was the thing i did most of the times, barring the occasional study hour !
Today, when i look at myself, i see a different person. I see a person who is hell bent on succeeding. Every hour of every day of every week, i am doing something which will make me successful in the future. I dont really like what i am doing, but i am so obscenely focussed on the end result, it doesnt matter to me anymore what i like and what i dont.
I dont like what i am turning into. I want to change. I need to change. I need to do things which make me happy. I need to concentrate on the present, I need to let the future figure itself out. If i am happy everyday of my life, my life is a success right !? i need to go the 'micro' way to happiness.
Is it going to be easy, no. But is it going to stop me from trying, hell no !!
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