Wednesday, September 1, 2010

What happens next ?

It was a typical summers afternoon in a small town in Texas. The heat was unbearable. But he had no choice. He had a job to do. Twenty jobs, to be precise. Doug was a tv repair guy for an electronics store. He was your typical average joe. A hard grind through life, struggling to make ends meet. The only family he had was his mother with whom he lived. But lately, even she was becoming a burden for him. Constantly ill, never happy, always crying and shouting and writhing in the pain of the cancerous disease that afflicted her. He could hardly afford her medicines. Doug hated his life. He was uncomfortable with every aspect of his life. And it was this afternoon that his desperation turned to sadism.

Doug had first his taste of blood that afternoon. A farmer in Texas whom he beat up to death with a baseball bat.  How that farmer must be wishing his TV wasn't broken that day. But it was something else about that man which triggered Doug's actions. It reminded him of his own father. An abusive drunken man who abandoned his own family because he just couldn't handle the responsibility. Abandoned his own son, abandoned his wife who loved him even though he beat her black and blue after every drunken tirade of his. That day, Doug felt strong. He felt empowered. That man deserved to die, he said to himself.  And the revenge felt almost like a drug. And he needed more of it.

That summer, Doug went on to kill twenty five other people. He was almost impeccable with his skills. He left no evidence. No witnesses. Just the baseball bat. That became his signature. The county sheriff was out of his wits trying to find the "baseball bludgeoner ". Doug was busy preparing for his day ahead. He only had five repair jobs today and he had his baseball bat with him.

Meanwhile, in another part of town, Billy was just about to begin another one of his break-ins. He was a robber. Breaking into peoples houses. Snatching whatever he could before the inhabitants showed up and disappearing into thin air. Typically. But there were also many houses which weren't so easy, so peaceful. Sometimes the owners showed up too early, and when they saw Billy, they just panicked. Sometimes they tried to fight back. Billy did not like that one bit. He even told them to stop or else. Else he would have to make them stop. Billy was never proud of the people he killed. But if they just would listen. If only they would have let him take everything and leave. They didn't understand. Billy was hoping he didn't have to use his gun today. The owners were out. He had seen them leave in their car. Probably on their way to an afternoon lunch and some shopping.

He broke in. These houses were becoming almost too easy for Billy. Tripping the alarms was a bit tricky, but he had mastered the technique. Billy looked around. This was always an exciting moment for him. Scanning the house for valuables. Picking whatever caught his fancy. He was just about to enter the bedroom when he heard a noise. He heard someone talking. Yes. Someone was in the house. He began rushing towards the bedroom. Just as he entered the room, he saw her. A young girl, barely thirteen, holding a phone in her hand. What did she do ! "Did you just call the police ?" He roared. "You shouldn't have." But she was too scared to say anything. Just then he heard the the door open. Did she call her parents ? Billy went into the living to check. And his worst fears came true. There in front of him stood the owners of the house. And the husband was just about to use his phone. The following few moments were like a blur. And when it all ended, Billy was standing there with the gun in his hand, two shells at his foot and just one thought in his head. If only the man had listened to him. Why did he need to call the police. Now his daughter will have to suffer the consequences. She will have to go through life without her parents. And all because her father didn't listen.
Billy was rudely brought out of the shock by the doorbell. Who could it be ? The police ? Did the father manage to call them ? Could it be the neighbors ? Billy was too shocked to be thinking straight. He probably shouldn't have opened the door. But he did. "Hi ! I am Doug. I am here to repair your Tv. Could I come in ?"

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Sunday, August 29, 2010

Second coming

Dear diary,
As i write this, i know i am going to die any day now. He is surely going to kill me. I have seen it in his eyes. I have seen the hatred, i have seen the hurt and most importantly, the revenge which seethes his soul.

As i look back on my life, all i remember is May 26th 1980. That was the day my fate was sealed. As i heard the words "we the jury find the defendant guilty of voluntary manslaughter and arson and hereby sentence him to life imprisonment", i was almost too calm. I knew what i had done. I wasn't hopeful of my freedom. I had given up on life a long time ago. I was probably dead inside already. These people will only put a body in prison, the soul is already freed, i thought to myself. I was so wrong.

The first few years in prison were horrible. They almost made me wish for death. But as the days went by, i grew comfortable with the prison life. It became routine. The constant fear for life, the almost unbearable pain and the humiliation, all became routine. I had found my own set of friends, if you could call them that. One of them was a serial killer, one was a bank robber. Some others were rapists. And i was the arsonist. All in all, it was good bunch of people.

Then one day, we had guests. New inmates. And as we watched them enter the walls of this hell hole we called home, we could see the eternal hope in their eyes. They still had the fight in them. They were still angry. It will go away soon, just give them a few years. I hadn't noticed him then. Johnny that is. Not that it would have mattered. He would have found me anyway.

I met Johnny during one of our construction hours. He was as old as my boy would have been now. Give or take a few years. And there was something about this boy. I couldn't quite put my finger on it. Maybe he reminded me of my own little boy. No. I shouldn't think about it, i told myself. But the resemblance was almost too eerie. As time went by, he grew comfortable around us. He was part of our group. He was an intelligent boy, he told us how he had successfully robbed many a bank with his deception and con skills. It was only this one last time, he said, that something went wrong. Maybe someone from the group had ratted or something. He didn't know, he said. As i look back now, maybe it wasn't a mistake. Of course it wasn't. He just wanted to get in here somehow. To put an end to his misery and anger. To finish what i had started 20 years ago.

As i was taking a shower yesterday, he came to me. "You are here for killing your family isn't it !?" how did he know that, i though to myself. I hadn't told anybody about it. I was probably afraid of telling myself of what i had done. "Your wife Melinda and your son Bob, right !? You remember that night don't you ? You remember how you strangled mom before you slit her throat and watched her die. You remember me crying while i sat next to her lifeless body ? You remember putting fire to the house , your own house ?!". How could he possibly know that ? It couldn't be. I was sure i had burned the house and everything inside it down to ashes. How could he have escaped. "Is that you Bobby ?" i asked. "Did you survive that night ?". "No dad, i couldn't. I couldn't escape, i didn't want to leave mom just by herself. I was scared for her. I wanted to be there by her side." "Then who are you ? My son is dead isn't he ?". "Yes dad, consider this my second coming. And now you will get what you deserve. My revenge will be done."
As i write this, i know i am going to die any day now. He is surely going to kill me. I have seen it in his eyes. I have seen the hatred, i have seen the hurt and most importantly, the revenge which seethes his soul.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Princess

"And then the Princess was greeted by a handsome Prince who had arrived from a far off land to sweep the Princess off her feet ..."
"Cmon Alexis, we have to go now... say goodbye to daddy.... ". I was rudely brought back to my reality by that drab and evil voice of Mrs Goodison. She never had the appreciation of timing. " Atleast let me finish my story !! " i yelled. She though would have none of it. "No Mr Hatchet, Alexis has a school she needs to attend. She has to get her education, lest she turn out like you ! Do you want her to turn out like that ? Do you ?? "
And dats when it hit me... do i want her to turn out like me ? or do i want her to have a better childhood than i did ? I mean, how much can i really provide her with ? how much can a truck driver provide her with ... my lonely lowly existence was hard enuf to survive even for me.... how do i expect my princess to go through all that...
things were'nt all this bad when Stana was around. God ! i miss her... she was the thread of my life.... she kept everything together... even in her last days suffering from the cancer of the most heinous kind, she never lost hope and neither did she allow me to. She told me to take care of "Gods most precious git to us "... our daughter. Alexis... and now these people were going to take her away from me.... they think i am not gud enuf to raise my own daughter ? they want me to break my promise to my wife ? i cant let that happen... i just cant.... i have to think of something.... i have to find a better job, make a better life for my princess... but how.... who's going to give somebody like me a decent job.. some old beat up school dropout.... and without a job how will i support our existence... how will i give my child the magical kingdom of the kind i tell her abt every night.... they are right in taking her away aren't they ?!
No .... it cant be... i cannot lose... i cannot just watch as somebody else raises our daughter... what if they treat her badly... what if they destroy all the dreams which we had for her.... no... my daughter deserves her dad... she needs someone to take care of her just right... and that someone is me.... yes... it has to be me....
So, as i stand here near the dead lifeless body of Mrs Goodison, i am happy. I do not regret my actions. That bitch deserved to die. She was the one coming between me and my Alexis.... she had to die... and now as i wait for my daughter to come home, i know that a good life is waiting for us... i will make it happen... i will succeed...

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Heart vs Mind

What follows is a very old poem which i just found written somewhere on the back of my college notes. I had quite the passion for writing abstract bad verse during the ever so boring lectures in engineering.

Think, my friend, think again !
Ignore the heart, it shant no gain
to thou.

The heart , a God , O ! so fickle ,
it hath no brains !! , will land thou,
in a pickle

It wants what it wants , it knows not the consequences.
The mind tells it to stop , still it advances,
to it's own peril.

The mind is right, the mind is cold !
The mind is safe , it ain't too bold.
The mind sees the colours, it ignores the beauty ,
of nature
It recognises the smell, it knows not the fragrance ,
of a Rose in bloom.
So,
think with the mind , it bringeth no gloom !!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Damsel in distress

it was friday i think... i dont really remember.. yeah it was friday... becos it was booze night... and i had a few too many that day... i was high as a bird !! it was around 1 in the morning and i was returning home when i saw her... i probably shudnt have stopped.... but she looked like a real mess... and i thought i shud help her... the booze clouding my judgement ... but anyways.. i did stop... and here wat happened bcos i did ...

i walked up to her to ask what was the problem... she was just standing there in the middle of nowhere late at night .. it was a dangerous place to be at... her clothes were all dirty and i noticed that there was a spot of red on the t-shirt too... "What is the matter ? What are you doing here so late at night ?" ... she didnt respond... may be she didnt want to talk to anyone... maybe she was just too scared... i asked again ... "What happened ? Can i help you ?" . "Shut up ! Just shut up ... dont try and get into what you dont understand.... You dont have the balls to even comprehend what the matter is .. let alone help me ....". Shit. That was out of the blue... try to help someone and you get this... But i didnt leave... any sane man wud have i know.. but after an entire bottle of antiquity .. i wasnt really very sane... "Please miss.. let me help you ... you look like u are in trouble..." . "Trouble !!? i am not the one in trouble... Its him you shud be helping really... if i have my way, he is going to be in a shitload of trouble....". "What ?? what are you talking about ? who is he ? what are planning to do ?"

She went quiet... maybe she had said too much. i was also too jolted to say anything. wat was this lady talking about ? wat was the horrible thing she was going to do if she had 'her way' ? she looked like a normal girl really... sharp features ... short crop of hair... tall... she was tall... and beautiful... god.. she was beautiful... maybe dats wat made me stop to help her... her face was radiant... and she looked confident... dats wat troubled me more.. something seemed amiss.. she wasnt the damsel in distress she shud have been... she looked like someone with a mission... focussed... and maybe wat she just said was the reason.. the mission... So i asked again. "What is the problem miss.. why are you here ? dont u have a home u need to go to ?".... and dats when i saw it... a tear rolling down her eyes... Home.... did something bad happen to her home ... probably someone robbed it... maybe it was destroyed or something ... " I had a home once... A happy home... Me , my kids and him. It was a gud place. A happy place... until that night... I am going to make him pay... i am going to kill him....". What ?? what was that women talking abt... was she out of her mind.... and wat was i still doing there... my concerns for her were now long gone and they were replaced by fear... fear for my own safety... i decided to leave... i didnt want anything to do with this... just as i started to go she thundered, " Where are you going ?! You cant leave now. If you leave then i wont be able to do wat i have planned... i will fail... and this time i dont want to fail... twice.. twice before i have tried to have my revenge... rightful revenge... but the bastard escaped... he had luck on his side... this time i wont fail... tonite is the end of him... his ghastly existence... He is a demon... a rotten hearted son of a bitch... killed his own daughter.... my daughter....". By now she was totally broken. "This time i have this .... and this time my hand wont hesitate to slice open his heart and watch it till it bleeds out the last drop of vicious poisonous blood in his body". The blade of the weapon was frighteningly sharp... and it was covered with blood... maybe it was used ?! used recently ?! shit... this was bad.. i needed to get out of there...

i tried to run.... just as i turned she caught hold of my throat.. brought the knife to my heart and shouted... "Where are you going bastard... dont you remember me ?! dont you remember your own wife.... Dont you remember our daughter screaming for her life as you stabbed her 13 times.... dont you remember coming up to me with this knife .... this very same knife and telling me that you were sorry.. that you had no choice but to kill us all lest anybody find out wat you had done... I tried to run away. I tried to run for my life... but i failed. The last stab near the heart was just too much... Instant death... ". And then suddenly i remembered... it was priya... shit... but she was dead wasnt she... i killed with my own hands... i killed her with that very knife....

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Life in the times of FB

i am from a generation of youngistan who grew up (or atleast thght we did) with a heady dose of Orkut !!! thats right... u remember that right !!? orkut... those were the easy days... just befriend people u know... send them 'scraps' !!

Then something weird happened... orkut began being overtaken by voyeurs ... it became a haven for sick basterds to harass the living scrapbooks out of innocent orkuters !! ( atleast thats how i think it went ). So people who were really interested in the social networking side of the whole thing shifted base... they (we) migrated to FB !!

Suddenly the once dull and overcrowded UE of FB didnt matter anymore... it became simple sleek and effective !! applications were interesting ... comments and 'likes' even better !! it was a wonderful world again !!

Nowadays FB is everywhere ... everybody who is anybody has a FB profile. Even me :P

Suddenly social farming is the 'in' thing to do !!! the passion with which ppl play the mafia wars wud put Columbians to shame !! people are taking quizzes as if their social life depends on it !! joining 'important causes' to show their social awareness.. becoming fans of things that are soo absurd .. it not even funny any more ...take this for example ...
really ?? is this something u think about more than once ? best of luck with the rest of your life buddy....
Frankly .. i think this is getting a bit much... some status updates are so lame ... its hilarious.. they are just there for getting comments and 'likes' from people... some of them are not even original and the plagiarism is bordering on childish... people are actually copying status updates from others and putting it up as their own !!

so basically i dont like wat is happening to FB ... somehow it is becoming a place for ppl to live their alternate lives.. lives in which they are cool.. they are 'hep' .. they are 'liked' ... but none of it is real...

newazz... this is how i feel.. may be i am wrong.. i shudnt judge how othr ppl live their social lives shud i ... probably.. but .. this is my blog and i write wat i want !! so stuff it..

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Treadmill

Phew... even beginning this blog seems to be a tiresome exercise... being as it is that i havent posted anything since last July !!! man that was long ago .. shitt..

Anyways.... better get to the point of my blog quickly...
Treadmill !!

Currently i have become obsessed with exercising... gymming .. cardios.. runs.. walkss... u name it.. i am doing it every week... but this is not abt that... its abt my life which seems to be like walking on a treadmill.. i am working hard... i am huffing and puffing.... i am sweaty and messed up.. but i aint getting anywhere !!!!

So let me explain the predicament that is my life... professionally (if you can even call , a year of working a job , that...) i am going nowhere.... i aint getting no big raise... i aint getting no big promotion... not that i expect it... since i am still the lowermost rung in the hierarchy... shitt....

personally... there is just nothin... zero .. zilch... i just get up... go to the gym.. come back.. go to the office.. come back... go to sleep.... very very happening na !! i know..... shitt...


future wise.. i am in a complete mess... i know i shud be taking further education.. but i just missed the bus this year... i didnt even show up at the bus-stop actually... but now that i think abt it.. its really scary... i dont really have a plan... shitt...


come to think of it... i am not doing much besides my work actually.... but how come i dont find time for anything else... i dont find time to play.. i dont find time to talk to friends.. i dont find time to laugh.... i dont find time to Live.... maybe its becos....


i really dont know why actually....